A couple of hours ago I had this experience that was unlike anything else before. I can only describe it as experiencing ‘the veil’ or ‘the other side of the mirror’ etc. It wasn’t like any of the EE’s, PCE’s or various glimpses of actuality in the past. It’s like if so far ‘I’ have been sailing around looking for the land called “terra actualis”, and sometimes getting a peek of it through ‘my’ binoculars or other times the clouds parting and seeing it over there in the distance… This was like ‘I’ sailed right up to it’s shores, got out the boat and stood before it, to know (with a 100% certainty) that ‘I’ can never enter.
And seeing that ‘other side of the mirror’ there is indeed a factually existing world where this body lives, which is simply perfect. And indeed ‘I’ have to die for this body to be free to live there, that ‘I’ can see in a way that is undeniable now.
So there were two things which were impressed on ‘me’ when ‘seeing past the veil’ :
The actual world does genuinely exist and it is complete, consummate.
‘I’ have to die in order for this body to be free to live there.