Hi Vineeto,
So it looks like “the fear” has surfaced 
, it’s quite fascinating what happened / what ‘I’ did… It looks like basically I got heavily spooked at some point in the past, it makes sense as I was not yet ready to proceed and I tried to push right through regardless.
So after that heavy dose of the heebie-jeebies I (as you said) “resolved” that fear away, essentially I conveniently set it aside somewhere in the psyche, and it looks like I did this so well that I could no longer locate it. So then the consequence was that I was playing around in a paddling pool and thinking myself to be falling off the cliff.
So today when I got a whiff of it, I was quite excited actually 
, the difference now is that I find myself in a far better position to proceed. This fear I no longer experienced as an “unpalatable resistance”, instead I experienced it as this raw apprehension at the prospect of no longer ‘being’. And I was able to allow a fascinated attention right into it, without moving (psychically).
I have been having a very grand time since, which doesn’t necessarily mean it has been dissolved but some headway has been made for sure! There is a lot more I wanted to write about but I am somewhat pressed for time so I will leave it at that for now 
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