Hi Vineeto,
What a hectic 24 hours it has been! 
Not sudorific by any means but experientially / existentially there has been so much going on. You know I have always been quite keen on meticulously describing (even systematising) my experiencing but the nature of some of this experiencing lately I can’t really put into words. I guess it’s the fact of having these wonderful experiences in the first place but also at the same time the existential sense of approaching my destiny, which makes it so incredible.
I was filled with appreciation yesterday because looking at the manner in which I have spent the last 24 hours I remembered what it was like for the 18 year old me who had just discovered actualism, I remember how deeply mired in suffering I was and what it took to hoist myself up by my own bootstraps and somehow bit by bit extricate myself from the mess.
And now to arrive at a place where feeling good happens automatically, where mostly the only diversions from feeling good can happen when I am on the “hot seat” with you And then on top of that more and more frequently there are these experiences happening for which I have no words. Yesterday as I was driving to one of my hen do’s it was exactly as Srinath wrote in his report :
Srinath: “I was driving my car once and the actual world around me seemed so deliciously magical that I wanted to shout out with joy”.
That particular experience was the peak, but even the rest of the day it was like that in various degrees.
So when it was at that unbelievable peak, I thought well if this is an opportunity to become actually free then I must make use of it. But then at the same time I was aware of what we have arrived at recently, that something else needs to happen still! But then I thought “how on earth could it get more than this!” 
So to sum up I am still looking at this proposition - To give permission to have my life live itself, and yes I have been contemplating how this also includes the acquiescence to ‘my’ demise. And it’s like the fascinated contemplating of all this, with the entirety of ‘my’ being, has changed the atmosphere around me.
Oh and in terms of the “wall of fear” still needing to be traversed, I take good note of this. It’s just that in my experiencing I cannot see it so far. There is often this tingling excitation, or like a charge in the air. Definitely still keeping this in mind though.