Hi Vineeto,
So with the strop over now… your reply was excellent.
I wrote earlier that there is just no other direction that ‘I’ could travel within ‘myself’, that is true. But all the journeys within ‘myself’ were always journeys with a return ticket.
I had your reply in mind all day today, especially the below :
Once “given oneself prior permission to have one’s life live itself (i.e., sans the controlling doer), and a different way of being comes about (i.e., where the beer is the operant) – whereupon a thrilling out-from-control momentum takes over and an inevitability sets in – whereafter there is no pulling back (hence the reluctance in having it set in motion) as once begun it is nigh-on unstoppable.” [Emphases added]. (Richard, List D, Claudiu4, 28 Jan 2016).
And indeed I can see now there is a direction in which I have never travelled before and this one is not a path within ‘myself’.
And I can see that it is possible, that such a direction exists, in fact in the back of my mind I have always suspected that this is exactly what it would take, it just seemed too radical a direction to actually go.
Now though because I have literally ran out of the possible journeys with a return ticket, this one is staring me right in the face.
You know I have (about 30min ago) sustained a ligament tear in my knee, possibly partial but it seemed quite severe so possibly a full tear, but actually that currently seems irrelevant (well I know it will get sorted either way). That’s just to highlight how significant this is what I have seen today.
And although I am not currently travelling in that direction / have never travelled in that direction - I can now see that such a direction exists, and has done all along, and this in itself Is huge! Even just coming close to this possibility, allowing/accepting that it exists, has led to a completely different type of experiencing today.
To sum up, I can see now that a direction exists which does not lead in a circle back to ‘me’. And the “how” of it is spelled out in that quote above.