Hmm it’s quite fascinating, it seems to me that I have had glimpses of this, especially the past week or so there has been times with that kind of experiencing, where it seems it could have happened at any moment. BUT there was always this sense of choice, that I could go this way or that way, rather than it being an inevitability, which I presume is where the enormity of it can be fully grasped.
The words “it could happen” means that ‘I’ still have a choice, some wiggle room, and where there is wiggle room, ‘I’ wiggle out!
Reading Srinath’s words, ‘he’ had no choice at that pivotal moment of seeing - “I would need to truly die. The enormity of this dawned on me suddenly like it never had before. The enormity of what I had to give up. It took my breath away.”
Indeed it looks that for altruism to be activated there can be no choice left for ‘me’, only the seeing which triggers “immediate and irrevocable action”.
It is as if ‘I’ have been progressively removing the various choices, that is the very aspect of approaching ‘my’ destiny, but there is still currently some wiggle room left, and so ‘I’ can go on for a little longer.
