Hi Kuba,
I re-read the paragraph you mentioned (Global Waming) but I couldn’t find the connection. Out of curiosity, could you explain it to me?
Kuba: Yes I see your point loud and clear – The totality and irrevocability of ‘my’ demise has not been grasped fully to begin with if ‘I’ am entertaining scenarios of ‘me’ coming back or not, it is hope and despair in disguise. (link)
Yes, when you have fully grasped “the totality and irrevocability of ‘my’ demise” there will be no doubts left. No phoenix can rise from the ashes – there won’t be any ashes.
I read Srinath becoming-free-report again and this part stood out –
>Srinath: That night I stood in the balcony knowing that something was required to convince me to let go of the controls. I kept thinking about that last piece of pizza that was me and what the reason could there be to ‘die’? It seemed like I was hanging on by a very thin thread that stayed firmly in place. At that point I saw my girlfriend lying on the couch and once again I could see that what was separating us was ‘me’. I went out to the balcony and looked down and saw some people walking. I could see that even though everything was nearly perfect that last little bit of ‘me’ was there separating myself from everyone else on this planet and spoiling perfection. The spoonful that weighed a tonne. ‘I’ would roar back into full existence creating havoc for this body and every body, given half a chance. I had to ‘die’ so that this body and every other body could live peacefully. I would need to truly die. The enormity of this dawned on me suddenly like it never had before. The enormity of what I had to give up. It took my breath away. Suddenly I felt a twinge of sadness that emerged from me like a thin pungent streak. But it cut-off abruptly as if in mid-air, still-born.
Nothing else happened.
It was all over in about 2 seconds. (Srinath Report of Becoming Free)
Cheers Vineeto