Richard: Okay … this is important, vital, pivotal: ‘I’, the thinker, know that ‘I’ cannot do it … ‘I’ cannot disappear ‘myself’. Only the ‘utter fullness’ can, and the ‘utter fullness’ is ‘calling one’, each moment again, and it is only when ‘I’ fully comprehend – totally, completely, fundamentally – that to be living this ‘utter fullness’ is to be living ‘my’ destiny will one be able ‘to answer that call’.
More periods of apperceptiveness going on today, each time the shift happens I experience exactly that “utter fullness”, a world where ‘I’ play no role whatsoever and where everything is already happening. Even a brief glimpse serves as a reminder that ‘I’ am indeed redundant, utterly so!
Experientially I am quite familiar with the target now, I realise that in the past I actually had no clue what I was aiming for with regards to actual freedom so of course ‘I’ created imaginary targets and aimed for those.
Whereas now I have utmost confidence that the world glimpsed in those periods of apperceptiveness, the world of the “utter fullness”, is the correct target, it is the actual world where this body already exists without any input from ‘me’. There is also a surety that to live in the world of the “utter fullness” is my destiny, and it is already here.
It’s all very much of the flavour of what I wrote the other day - a sensation of ‘me’ not having happened yet and then that “utter fullness” is already here where it has been all this time, there is no lag, no void to fill, no hand-over time, actuality is already happening now. It is in fact even closer than under my nose haha!
Although the matter of “how will the deal be sealed” is still an experiential question mark.