@Vineeto Earlier when I said ‘I can’t ‘ you said that maybe it’s really because ‘I don’t want to ‘ and not because I can’t. I don’t yet know why but this has stuck with me. Maybe I don’t want to even though I don’t know why. It could be that I can’t because I don’t want to.
This could be fear lurking which makes me feel like I can’t. Not sure exactly what it is. Still looking.
Actually, ‘I can’t ‘ because ‘I don’t want to’ does make sense because if I really wanted to then I could do it. I need to pinpoint why ‘I don’t want to.’ Fear is the most likely culprit.