Hi Vineeto,
Oh yes I have been having fun honing in on this, I am fascinated by the fact that those good feelings, they are right there in all of ‘my’ dramas and indeed ‘humanity’s’ dramas. What a gigantic step to see this, but seeing this has taken the legs out from under those dramas, both the good and the bad was needed to maintain them.
At times I had this passing thought - “What is going to be left without those good feelings” in the sense that something precious would be missing, but this is not so at all. Yesterday I had a glimpse of what exists outside of both the good and the bad, and it left me speechless - it is a world filled to the brim with magical anhedonic delight. I am experiencing the flavour of it as I type this message and there is certainly nothing missing haha!
Yes this is fascinating - For me too the “last frontier” was ‘the good’, for it had kept the ‘the bad’ in place. I can understand what you mean now when you write :
And the other thing, the proof of the pudding is that I am now consistently having a great time, for example I noticed a minute ago as I put down the phone to a customer that yet again it was a benign dealing, it’s all quite easy when ‘I’ am not mucking things up 