Hi Vineeto,
Thank you for sharing this, it’s both an encouraging read in that ‘Vineeto’ did in fact succeed and also a reminder of the fact that I do not have forever as Alan did not succeed.
The map making and the approval seeking (in fact I was making maps and then seeking for you to approve them) was likely a way to find some kind of an anchor in this at times weird adventure. But the salient point here is that you cannot approve of ‘me’ or ‘my’ machinations. And even if you did it would lead ‘me’ exactly round in circles anyways.
Things are different now, cleaner and calmer, like a storm has passed. The genuine anchor which is pure intent is becoming available, not at all times yet but I do come back to it, and it is never too far away it seems.