Hi Vineeto,
I see the trick now, and it’s not just this one particular trick but ‘my’ tricks altogether, which are there essentially as breaks to prevent motion, as motion means that ‘my’ territory is at stake.
It’s funny because I always thought I wanted an adventure, but this is a genuine adventure now and I wonder if I have the minerals for it 
It’s not that the motion is painful or anything like that, it’s a wonderful adventure but it’s actually happening… I don’t have a word for it because it’s not scary and yet it’s as if the hairs on my neck are standing up.
It seems that each time ‘I’ dare to give up some of ‘my’ territory there is the initial resistance etc and then once it goes there is a greater scope of enjoyment and appreciation available and then again ‘I’ put up a barrier a little lower down and play the same game over again. The tricks seem to come in to play in particular when there is that potential of the next bit of ‘my’ territory being given up.