Kuba: Hi Vineeto,
It appears that I am now in a similar if not the same place to where I was when you began writing on the forum. I think I did peek out the cage then or perhaps I left it briefly and then returned to ‘safety’. This is exactly what I was doing around that time – obsessively allowing the flavour which is not of ‘me’ / ‘reality’ and obsessively refusing to go back to ‘normal’. But as you said perhaps I was not ready to break out, well I had plenty of time to simmer around back in the ‘safety’ of ‘normal’.
Hi Kuba,
This is what you wrote at the time I “began writing on the forum” –
Kuba: It starts with the realisation that this moment which is happening now is my only moment of being alive, and it is never not this moment, furthermore it’s the realisation that this moment is actually happening, this business called being alive is actually taking place now.
So bearing the above in mind it is always silly to feel bad because of X, because I am wasting a precious opportunity to enjoy and appreciate life now, and as it is never any other time than now, I am wasting this precious opportunity for nothing. (15 July 2024)
This exploration turned out to be a ‘rehearsal’ with you eventually going “back to my cage”. And yet you have learnt a lot on the way, mainly what to avoid but that is the way it often works. It’s worthwhile collecting the experiences you gained. Are you ready to go for a one-way trip this time?
Kuba: I remember around the time of let’s say “peeking out the cage”, that I saw the majority if not all of what ‘I’ and ‘others’ were doing was essentially those delaying tactics, anything but action. And then I took action. When I went back to my cage I then tried to collect various ingredients of what would allow me to proceed and yet that is not what would do the trick.
The action is more like a dance rather than looking at a map from the safety of ‘my’ office, it’s allowing that mirificent flavour here and then applying daring and caring here when fear comes in, but all the while there being action.
But it is that mirificent flavour of pure intent which provides the “juice” to proceed, it can only be that, that which is outside of ‘me’ / ‘reality’.
Resist the temptation to map it out, classify, imagine or even thinking in advance what will happen when you allow pure intent to live you. To naïvely explore and taste naïveté only needs your sincere intent of purpose to imitate the actual and, of course, the daring to not get scared when pride or other aspects of your self-image appear to stop you. Slowly and fascinatedly reconnoitre the world of this “mirificent flavour” with a child’s curiosity, albeit with adult sensibilities in place.
Kuba: Oh I have to tell you about this dream I had just a few hours ago, because it is so well timed and quite amusing actually haha. In the dream there was a newly discovered island which was slowly being populated. I went to visit some friends on the island and I was jealous of their daring to move there. In the dream I heard myself explaining to one of the inhabitants how after doing all my calculations it seemed more sensible to remain in the safety of the mainland! (link)
Ha, your dream reveals how much of the old paradigm of ‘safety first’ (what safety?) is still operating dominant.
Cheers Vineeto