I have been quite fascinated by altruism, first of all that Richard worked out that this is the answer, without any precedent - this I have a constantly growing amazement for. Richard did write that the human condition is weird and so coming out of it is weird, and indeed who would have thought that this is the way to do it. Now we have the benefit of knowing with confidence that indeed it is the way out of the human condition, there is a clear target.
I can see that altruism has nothing to do with morality, it is not good/bad, it is an instinctive action. It is not that ‘I’ am ‘being’ altruistic but rather that altruism is triggered in the moment, sacrificing ‘myself’ for others, and that as a ‘self’ ‘I’ am already programmed to do this. It makes complete sense that this is required in order to override the otherwise all-encompassing drive of selfism.
Furthermore I can see that altruism is not actual, it is as real as anything else of ‘mine’.
It is quite odd on one hand seeing that ‘my’ existence is nothing but an instinctual drama and yet on the other hand understanding that this drama must play out until it’s conclusion. But knowing that it is a drama brings a certain safety to it all - it seems this is why the waters are nowadays calm and smooth. Because ‘I’ understand that in actuality all is well, in fact I often experience these glimpses of the world outside of ‘me’ - and indeed all is well, none of ‘my’ dramas exists there at all, and I mean not even the tiniest fraction.
So I have been fascinated that there is this capacity which ‘I’ have, an aspect of the programming bestowed by blind nature which can be utilised in order to end the human condition. And that this aspect of the programming does not require any learning or cultivating or anything like that, it requires the correct situation in order to be triggered. And I don’t mean that ‘I’ passively sit back and wait for something to happen. Rather I mean that the gun is already loaded and the finger is on the trigger, it’s all set to go in other words (this is not in reference to any “special psychic gun” btw, just that ‘I’ am already capable of altruism by nature of being a ‘self’).