Sometimes I wonder why I continue to write so much, to describe these experiences. On one hand there is that tendency which I have to peek around the corner and to be overly concerned with meticulously chartered territory. But then on the other hand I am very happy to have discovered what I have so far, which is that the way towards actual freedom is not some enigmatic, special powers requiring quest, rather it is something that is within the capacity of anybody to discover, it is a down to earth and sensible quest.
It is a bit like in BJJ you have the natural athletes and you have the coaches. The natural athletes tend to proceed forward and develop something like “implicit knowledge”, they can do amazing things and yet they could not convey what they are doing to another with impeccably clear instruction.
Whereas the coaches have an ability to develop crystal clear systems which allow the knowledge to be explicitly shared, and those “amazing things” eventually can be done by anybody.
It seems I have always drifted towards the second option, that rather than just getting somewhere I would like the path to be chartered meticulously, so that what has been achieved can be replicated by another in a more efficient manner. And it has been exactly like that for me with BJJ, that I got very good but not just in an implicit sense, that every step of my development I used to feed back into my ability to convey this to others also.
And it seems I have done the same thing with any discovery along the wide and wondrous path, that not only have I walked it but then I made sure that it was described in an explicit manner. Perhaps because I was never the “natural athlete” both in the sense of BJJ and the wide and wondrous path, in that I required a lot of instruction and a lot of feedback, it’s not something that I could have worked out on my own.