Wow Vineeto your post… it’s like every word landed bullseye on the intended target, which is ‘me’.
There is a lot happening at the moment, it’s like ‘I’ can’t gain any solid foothold. But there is no fear or resistance. I wrote recently how ‘I’ wanted to loose ‘my’ way back to normal and that in that place ‘I’ would loose ‘myself’ too. Looks like ‘I’ got what ‘I’ wanted.
There is stillness all around, the experience of it is amplified now as all that other ‘noise’ cleared away.
Earlier on I was thinking along the lines of what you wrote, that ‘I’ may have peeked “behind the curtain” which has given ‘me’ the utter confidence to proceed, but ‘I’ have not yet allowed the universe to disappear ‘me’.
So I see what you are saying, that ‘I’ want to be the one to disappear ‘me’, via the techniques that ‘I’ have used to get thus far. But that last piece of pizza cannot remove itself.
But really ‘I’ never disappeared anything anyways! It was the apperceptive seeing which exposed ‘me’, ‘I’ never exposed ‘me’, as ‘I’ cannot get outside of ‘me’.
Did ‘I’ ever do anything other than get out of the way so that pure seeing could eventuate?
It is very wonderful to consider that all ‘I’ have left to do is to allow the universe to disappear ‘me’. ‘I’ don’t resist it anymore, in fact it is so very peaceful for ‘me’ right now.