Kub933's Journal

[Kub933]

Hi Vineeto,

Thank you for your reply :

@Vineeto

This is a great way of phrasing it – ‘I’ am nothing other than “the “story of ‘my’ life””, nothing more substantial than a (highly passionate) story.

This is great that I can see it in writing and coming from you, because this is exactly what I saw this morning, that if the “story of ‘my’ life” was to end, then ‘I’ would end along with it, it was seen as such a simple thing, an alternative that is available for the taking.
But then later on there was this thinking/doubting that maybe “the story of ‘my’ life” was just the social identity aspect and that there was some deeper or more substantial ‘me’ as ‘being’ that had an existence separate to the story itself - This line of thinking/believing is kind of like veering into enlightenment territory.

@Vineeto

And with “the “story of ‘my’ life”” seen as insubstantial the internal struggle ceases as a result of the matter-of-fact recognition, seeing the fact, and then it simply makes sense to cease ‘being’. No struggle, no fear, no resistance. Actuality prevails over narrative – it’s a simple as that.

Again this is so great to read, because it is confirmation of what I am experiencing. And in the past I thought that to self-immolate it required something almost like a special power, and now I am seeing that the code can be cracked by anybody.

@Vineeto

Indeed, and this imperative, this ‘self’-survival mechanism is operating for everyone – until someone, anyone, looks “behind the curtains” and finds out, for a fact, that ‘me’ is only a narrative, a fraud, an impostor. It’s a wondrous adventure to do that.

Again no special powers required, this is great.

@Vineeto

Oh yes, ‘Vineeto’ never forgot that conversation where Richard was actually caring in telling ‘her’ from the start what was required and that it would be much bigger than the “chicken-feed” of abandoning loyalty. It nevertheless took ‘her’ another 10 years and 9 weeks to “crack that code”, like you are about to do, but one thing ‘she’ knew all the way that ‘she’ would never ‘do a Devika’, i.e. give up.

This is also nice to read, how ‘Vineeto’ approached ‘her’ quest, because ‘I’ have had the very same approach from the very start, and still do - that there is absolutely no possibility that ‘I’ will give up.