Kuba: What a fascinating experience I just had! I can’t sleep now following it so I thought I might as well write about it.
So I was in that half-asleep state in bed about 15min ago and I was enjoying a very fascinating journey through the psyche. It was as if ‘I’ was taken on a journey through the entirety of ‘my’ life but the key aspect was that it was clear that ‘I’ have been nothing but a marionette pulled by the strings of conditioning. It was a very fun journey and ‘I’ was definitely enjoying it in a fascinated way.
What blew ‘me’ away is what lay at the very inception of this conditioning, because it seems that since the marionette is being pulled in this and that way that ‘someone’ or ‘something’ is ‘behind it all’, and furthermore that ‘they/it’ must be working to some ‘higher purpose’.
And so as ‘I’ was moving through the journey ‘I’ eventually got to the very start of it all, the beginning – ‘I’ was astounded to find no-one at all. There was no god, no ‘higher intelligence’, no ultimate meaning etc. What ‘I’ discovered is perfectly described by the words – blind nature.
In that indeed the conditioning is pulling on the marionette and yet there is ‘noone’ or ‘nothing’ ‘behind it all’ – it is all simply a set of blind instinctual patterns. Now this might not seem as big as I initially made it out. But the ramifications are huge! It means that there is absolutely no purpose or meaning at all to suffering, it means that all those people who suffered or sacrificed or died for any of the causes which flow from the conditioning – it all happened for absolutely nothing at all. It means that no matter how noble or sophisticated the various belief systems, it is all over absolutely nothing at all.
‘I’ still remember the surprise that ‘I’ experienced, to find ‘noone/ nothing’ at all ‘behind it all’, simply a set of blind instinctual patterns – of course ‘humanity’ has turned these into something rather romantic and made a ginormous hoo-ha out of it all, and yet it is all over absolutely nothing, no meaning or purpose ‘behind it’ at all. (link)
Hi Kuba,
Isn’t this a great discovery! This apperceptive insight lived experientially is the end of believing any and all principles and concepts, axioms and ideals, tenets and illusions (as long as you comply with the legal laws and observe the social protocols).
Now there is nothing (credible) in the way to altruistically allow, with supreme confidence, the very core of ‘being’ itself – the selfish instinct for individual survival – to disappear into the same “‘nothing’ ‘behind it all’”.
Cheers Vineeto