Kuba: I was thinking to myself that I am ready to proceed into the unknowable, that whatever the universe “has in store” after ‘I’ disappear, that it will deliver the goods, that it cannot go wrong.
Richard: “‘My’ very ‘presence’ prohibits this ever-present perfection being evident. ‘I’ or ‘me’ as ‘being’ prevents the very purity of life, which ‘I’ am searching for, from coming into plain view. With ‘my’ demise, this ever-fresh perfection is now manifest. Peace-on-earth was here in this actual world all the time. ”
This seems the crux of it all, that the goods don’t even have to be delivered, they are already here now. It’s like it couldn’t possibly be any closer as it is already always here now, what a bizarre situation!
It’s like I am back to trying to utter that word that I can’t quite pronounce 
So ‘I’ go on this long journey to realise that perfection has been here right under ‘my’ nose all this time. And in that sense it seems the easiest thing in the world.