Kuba: It clicked as I was going to sleep that actual freedom delivers the goods because the meaning of life is not what ‘I’ have or what ‘I’ earn/ generate but rather it is intrinsic to what I am as a flesh and blood body. Which means that this flesh and blood body can never ever get away from meaning, that it is there at all times and in all circumstances – it is unconditional.
So as I was falling asleep I saw where everyone has been going wrong, in that people have been seeking to live the meaning provided by society/ blind nature and that this is forever doomed to fail. And that there is another way now, the one which delivers the goods, and that is to live the meaning provided by the universe.
Exactly, “to live the meaning provided by the universe” and doing so one is being the universe experiencing itself as a sentient flesh-and-blood body.
Kuba: And how silly to have such faith and trust and belief in what was provided by society/ blind nature and then to reject what the universe provides, how back to front!?
I can’t really say it any better than Richard has already :One simply needs to look at the physical world and just know that this enormous construct called the universe is not “set up” for us humans to be forever forlorn and feisty in with only scant moments of reprieve. ‘I’ can realise here and now that it is not and can never be some “sick cosmic joke” that humans all have to endure and “make the best of”. ‘I’ will feel foolish that ‘I’ have believed for all these years that the ‘wisdom’ of the real-world that ‘I’ have inherited – the world that ‘I’ was born into – is set in stone. (Richard’s Journal, p. 290)
Kuba: So as I was falling asleep there was this solid seeing, that of course the universe knows what it is doing, of course the meaning provided by the universe is actual and delivers the goods. And on the other hand there was this seeing that my whole life I gave credence to the meaning provided by society/ blind nature and that this was putting my eggs in the wrong basket as it can never deliver the goods. (link)
Yes, “the universe knows what it is doing” and “the meaning provided by the universe is actual and delivers the goods”, and you know from many PCEs and even excellence experiences that this is so. And to be fair, you can also acknowledge what you have been doing right for quite some time, you have been removing many of your “eggs” from the instinctual/ societal “basket”, so much so that you can now recognize there is no meaning in that basket your genetic programming has presented you with.
Richard goes on to say on the very next page –
Richard: “‘My’ very ‘presence’ prohibits this ever-present perfection being evident. ‘I’ or ‘me’ as ‘being’ prevents the very purity of life, which ‘I’ am searching for, from coming into plain view. With ‘my’ demise, this ever-fresh perfection is now manifest. Peace-on-earth was here in this actual world all the time.”
Is the irrevocability (link) of this step into the unknowable still scary or is it rather a blessed alternative for the actual delivery of the genuine meaning of life?
Cheers Vineeto