So what I find is that in this place - of not knowing how ‘I’ could possibly proceed, and yet proceeding - there is assistance provided by the universe. How fascinating, it’s like ‘I’ can come right to the edge and then it seems like ‘I’ can do no more, and then something else takes off exactly where ‘I’ have nothing more to give.
It’s right at that spot where ‘I’ have done all that ‘I’ can and yet there is still something else required, this something else is provided by the universe.
This “something else” is that which is ultimately precious, precious enough that the totality of ‘my’ being pales in comparison. And it is certainly far more precious than ‘my’ pride 
The below exchange comes to mind :
Kuba: I remember in the Q and A’s from Australia there was a quote utilised – “Give to me a fulcrum on which to plant my lever, and I will move the world”. I understand this now because before it was as if the energy which kept ‘me’ in place would not budge even if ‘I’ pushed as hard as ‘I’ possibly could – of course because who is doing the pushing and who is being pushed.
Vineeto: I always liked that Archimedes’ quote and ‘Vineeto’ thought it was for ‘her’ a perfect expression how to escape from the human condition. The fulcrum being pure intent, of course, outside of ‘me’.
It is pure intent which is that “something else / something ultimately precious”, this is the assistance provided by the universe. And this assistance is no little thing, it makes it impossible not to proceed, because it is far far more precious than anything of ‘mine’. It’s funny actually, when pure intent is not active it seems like ‘I’ have to look for reasons why ‘I’ could possibly sacrifice ‘myself’, when pure intent is active there is an entire universe of reasons
Hmm there is like this realisation gingerly setting in, that it’s all in place, all the puzzle pieces that could possibly come together, have come together.