So contemplating on what I wrote here - Felix's Diary - #407 by Kub933
I am now wondering, is it that ‘I’ was never ‘doing’ life to begin with? After-all all of ‘my’ plans and schemes as the ‘doer’ never came to fruition. I wrote about this before that ‘I’ have woken up thousands of times and planned what the day would be like, not once did ‘I’ get it right 
Is it that all of that ‘activity’ which ‘I’ carried out as the ‘sophisticated doer’ was something like psychological masturbation 
And if so then what is left to do at this point? Or rather what is left to ‘be’ 
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