Vineeto: Now that you explained what being a messiah really means, it could well be that “the freedom to be me as I am for one and all” is an entirely different destination to being actually free, as in “the freedom to be ‘me’ as I am for one and all”?
The question is, has this possible re-interpretation of what it means to “be free” distorted/ corrupted pure intent all this while without you noticing it? (link)
Kuba: Well what I can see now is that to cut a long story short ‘I’ have been aiming at the wrong target. Essentially those attempts at self-immolation were not aimed at benefitting flesh and blood bodies, they were aimed at the various inhabitants of reality. Driving home just now I lol’ed to myself as I remembered the instructions – allow ‘my’ self-immolation for the benefit of this body, that body and every body.
It makes sense that no matter how hard ‘I’ ran or how frantically ‘I’ searched it was always another invisible wall. ‘I’ cannot sacrifice ‘myself’ altruistically unless there is a genuine target. The genuine target is those factually existing flesh and blood humans i.e. my fellow human beings.
Hi Kuba,
It’s amazing how often ‘I’ manage to deceive ‘myself’, but even more amazing how one can get back on track with attentiveness and refocusing on pure intent and its apperceptive penetrating insight(s).
Kuba: What I realised today very quickly is that I was never afraid of my fellow human beings either, it was the identities that I was afraid of, that I resented etc But it doesn’t matter now whether I can ever bond in a normal way with other identities, because they are not the target of all this.
That is a is a wonderful realisation how to use your propensity and intelligence.
However, being passionate identities, your fellow human being need your altruistic offering and the eventually emerging of personalized pure intent to have demonstrated what is possible. Just look how often you refer to the few actually free people for guidance and encouragement for your own endeavour to become free.
Kuba: I remember in the Q and A’s from Australia there was a quote utilised – “Give to me a fulcrum on which to plant my lever, and I will move the world”. I understand this now because before it was as if the energy which kept ‘me’ in place would not budge even if ‘I’ pushed as hard as ‘I’ possibly could – of course because who is doing the pushing and who is being pushed.
I always liked that Archimedes’ quote and ‘Vineeto’ thought it was for ‘her’ a perfect expression how to escape from the human condition. The fulcrum being pure intent, of course, outside of ‘me’. The ‘who’ is doing the “pushing” and is “being pushed” is one and the same. As you said yesterday –
Kuba: What I am experiencing this evening is that the “enticement” which pure intent offers is irresistible, it makes all ‘my’ heroic efforts unnecessary. [Emphasis added]. (link)
Kuba: Whereas this genuine target, something outside of ‘me’ is what makes it possible. And with seeing the above it sunk in deeply just what happens, in that ‘I’ do indeed sacrifice ‘myself’, it is exactly what it says on the tin.
So it seems now ‘I’ have seen that there is a cliff edge, ‘I’ haven’t jumped yet though. And this is really big, it is the end for ‘me’ which means only genuine altruism will do, in that ‘I’ will sacrifice all of ‘myself’ to benefit something outside of ‘myself’.
This “really big” aspect it is not fearful but it is more like what Srinath wrote :
I would need to truly die. The enormity of this dawned on me suddenly like it never had before. The enormity of what I had to give up. It took my breath away (link)
I can understand what Geoffrey said to Claudiu in that it is not “kid business”, neither is it serious though… but it is very, very sincere. (link)
This is marvellous to read and what a remarkable difference to you previously thinking/saying “well those suffering others could clean themselves up” (link) ! And now you know that what is written “on the tin” (hehe) is spot on.
Cheers Vineeto