Hmm ok thank you, I am particularly fascinated by what you wrote that ‘I’ am preventing such an opportunity to arise. Whereas before ‘I’ would see it as something that ‘I’ have to generate. But indeed it does seem like if anything ‘I’ am preventing altruism from being activated, as you said there is already enough reasons all around. This does make sense because selfism will be in place all the way until altruism is activated. So ‘I’ will seek to live another day until ‘I’ don’t, that is the end.
Certainly being stuck in a maze of ticking off imaginary checkboxes would be a good distraction, and seeking that ‘final plateau’ for ‘me’ is also in the exact opposite direction of allowing altruism to be activated.
Hehe so I see it somewhat now that at the end of the day all ‘I’ can do is put it off a little more. ‘I’ am putting off the enormity of the seeing, of what role ‘I’ play in this mess and the only way of rectifying it.