Oh yes you did succeed in imparting that 
. I just didn’t add it in here
But to flesh it out here, the blessed part of it I can see by reflecting on the burden aspect of being me. It is exhausting being me, having to maintain myself, to do this and that, to be responsible, to be these malicious and sorrowful emotions that still continually get triggered, etc. The blessed aspect is that I no longer have to do this, to maintain myself, and what a relief this is felt to be… I relate it particularly to the ‘safe’ aspect of it, like it’s safe to do so, and this envelopment of safety allows me to let go (or at least aligns in that direction)
I think it was on the first evening you were talking about how much of a burden it was even compared between basically free and fully free – and you were wondering why you were saying it as in maybe it was something I had to hear. Although it’s a different burden, it was actually super appealing to hear as I was able to relate it to the burden of being a feeling-being, and how nice ( or rather blessed!) indeed it would be to not have to be that anymore …
I had actually been neglecting this, ty for bringing it up. It makes sense. It’s not all the same in every way if I physically die or self-immolate (what would be the difference then?). Yea it makes sense, it is a sacrifice, a sacrifice has to have some benefit or it’s not a sacrifice, so yea the benefit part of it is really like the whole point lol, great stuff