Haha well that is precisely on point, ‘I’ am just holding out in no man’s land at this point 
Driving to work last night I thought exactly that, I found ‘myself’ so far away from ‘home’, a bit like those sci-fi movies where the characters leave for some far away planet, but I had not landed in terra actualis yet either.
The fear or weirdness didn’t play much part though, it was more like “wow I have not been this far out yet”. For the first time there was this organic courage to proceed, it was thrilling. Because now having abandoned ‘humanity’ there was ‘no-one’ to go back to and ‘no-one’ to stop ‘me’ proceeding.
So then ‘I’ was completely on ‘my’ own but not alone, it was quite incredible because it was as if I had finally located some semblance of individuality/autonomy. I was happy to stand on my own two feet and to proceed on my own, finally I was proceeding like a pioneer!
I thought about the fact that there are currently only a dozen or so people on this planet that live in this place where I am proceeding, how odd! This new land is rather unpopulated so far
But those individuals living there, they are exactly that - individuals. It is amazing to begin to locate a genuine individuality. I thought about you Vineeto that you actually do exist in this place where I am proceeding, where you are - “as if living naked in the wilderness, utterly on my own and undeniably undefined by either people or events”.
I thought how you have been inviting us to join the party. That there is nothing to loose but ‘my’ shackles, this makes a lot more sense now experientially, it seems very close indeed - as Richard wrote “so close as to be already here”.