Yes I fell for it again! Except this time I smelled a rat pretty quick. When I wrote those furphies out - and as gullible as I can be - even I wasn’t sold 
But it was reading back over the below which made it click :
I tried to find this someone/something who is apparently not allowing me and then I realised that I have already abandoned ‘humanity’ So then it became clear… it is ‘my’ very survival instincts aka ‘me’ at the core of ‘my’ being that is the resistance, hence - “so I see that at this point anything other than giving ‘myself’ permission to allow it to happen is a side mission!”.
And what an amazing thing to discover this is! Indeed ‘I’ have been gullible all ‘my’ life, not only in believing in the authority of ‘human wisdom’ but in believing that the human condition is set in stone. I wrote in the past that ‘I’ am a coward, but actually I think it was the gullibility that came first ‘I’ was a coward because ‘I’ fell hook, line and sinker for those beliefs in the first place. All along there was no-one at all stopping ‘me’ from setting ‘myself’ free, of dropping the burden that is ‘being’ itself. ‘I’ am the one (and only one) to allow ‘myself’ to go blessedly into oblivion. And ‘I’ already know without a shadow of a doubt that the world will be all the better for it.
I remember you wrote to me a while ago asking (to the effect of) - can you hear it yet? Indeed ‘I’ can now hear the sound of ‘my’ extinction approaching 