Weirdly enough ‘I’ am extremely optimistic about it being possible now… Even though clearly ‘I’ do not yet know the way forward. Because now I see that there is something that ‘I’ am doing/being which prevents it from happening, which means this “something” can be uncovered!
So in short rather than soldiering through this “desert of monumental proportions” ‘I’ can continue allowing this ‘process’ and locate the root of the resistance - of what is keeping ‘me’ from allowing ‘my’ deeply yearned for oblivion, meanwhile avoiding getting drawn into any side mission (which I have just averted this morning haha).