Reading this back I can see why it might be “rocky at times”, there is still some kind of a resistance coming from ‘me’. It is odd because where pure intent is pulling ‘me’ is towards the end of suffering and yet ‘I’ experience it almost as if it’s some kind of an assault. ‘I’ am desperately holding onto ‘me’ and yet ‘I’ am suffering, and then the pull towards the end of suffering is experienced as an assault…