Kuba: So things are still going well, I have managed to evade getting stuck in the same places that I did in the past. That question of who or what am ‘I’ willing to give all of ‘myself’ to is still open, it is a thread that runs through ‘my’ moment to moment experience. (…)
So ‘I’ can completely lay down ‘my’ arms, this is what you mentioned, Vineeto, that ‘I’ have to be happy to be exposed warts and all. It’s like ‘I’ can happily agree that this is the end of the road for ‘me’, which means ‘I’ no longer have to be vigilant in order to keep ‘myself’ in check. It’s the end of a lifetime struggle, the battle between good and evil. (link)
Hi Kuba,
This is exactly it. Here Richard summed it up to a correspondent who was living “in this small island in the southern Atlantic Ocean by the Brazilian cost, very few books are available. My friends talk of fishing … mainly” –
RICHARD: In 1980, at the beginning of what was to be a four-hour PCE that was the turning-point in my life, ‘I’ saw ‘myself’ for what ‘I’ was (a lost, lonely, frightened and very, very cunning social identity) and the instant ‘I’ saw ‘myself’ … I was not that. Thus (when I reverted back to normal in the ‘real world’) ‘I’ knew, by direct experience, that ‘I’ was standing in the way of the actual being apparent … and ‘I’ had to go – become extinct – and not try to become something ‘better’. That is, ‘I’ knew that ‘I’ could never, ever become perfect or be perfection. The only thing ‘I’ could do – the only thing ‘I’ had to do – was die (psychologically and psychically self-immolate).
‘My’ question was: How on earth am ‘I’ to do this? (Richard, List B, 34a, 2 June 1999).
RESPONDENT: Elaborate this …
RICHARD: Given that ‘I’ knew, via direct experience, that ‘I’ could never, ever become perfect or be perfection … then the only thing ‘I’ could do – the only thing ‘I’ had to do – was die (psychologically and psychically self-immolate) so that the already always existing perfection could become apparent. So when I asked (as an open question) ‘how do ‘I’ do it?’ the essential character of the perfection of the physical infinitude of this material universe was enabled by ‘my’ concurrence. (Richard, List B, 34a, 7 June 1999).
All is going well.
Cheers Vineeto