Today things have been going absolutely spectacularly, I actually don’t have words to convey the wonder and delight that is being experienced. It’s interesting because although this thing with the “turning over” in the nape of the neck seems to have been unique to Richard, I have observed something similar many times, although there is no turning over but rather a building pressure. Usually for a day or so I will experience this building pressure right in the nape of the neck, it’s almost like the brain is charging up for something. When this is happening there is very much a sense of the sensate world coming strongly to the fore but I also find I am usually quite tired during those times. Then usually the day after (exactly as happened today) I find myself experiencing previously untouched levels of freedom and delight.
What is even more marvellous is that the experiencing seems to be in large part anhedonic, it is the direct sensate experience of the delights of the actual world, and what a marvellous world we exist in! Driving back from training today I only had this huge smile on my face and a sense of completion. There is still actual freedom to proceed to of course but just to experience what is here for everybody - that utter perfection and purity - had me thinking that I could gladly die right now. When this thought occurred I realised that indeed this is what will happen 
. That ‘I’ do not go any further and yet ‘I’ can go into blessed oblivion with this sense of a job well done and the sure knowledge that what will remain after ‘I’ disappear is paradise. So yes now this “I could die right now” needs to change to “I will die right now”.
It’s interesting because in the past being so close to it happening there was this sense of frustration, ‘I’ just wanted to get it over and done with, some slight desperation. But now this isn’t happening anymore, it is clear that ‘I’ am doing all that ‘I’ can and the best that ‘I’ can do is to continue allowing this process to it’s completion.
Now I am aware that these opportunities need to be grabbed with both hands whenever possible so I have been remaining attentive as ever to what could provide that last 0.001%.
It seems this whole process of stepping out from control has been a process of “coming to terms” with the actuality of what is to happen. Initially it was more like a far away idea/hope/plan, a “maybe”… It took some time to come to terms with the fact that actual freedom is to land irrevocably into the world that the PCEs demonstrate, as a living actuality. Ha of course this would take some time coming to terms with, it is so huge!
But now it is more like it would be weird if it was not to happen, that proceeding into actual freedom is a natural progression of the process that started last year. Even writing this there is a tingling excitement as this sinks in even deeper - that it will actually happen.
The only thing that seems to steer me off course (temporarily only) seems to be the evening time. It’s kind of odd and it’s always been like this, especially in winter here in the UK where it gets dark pretty early. The way I experience it is that in the mornings it is as if the whole world is open to me, so much to delight in. As the day approaches it’s completion there is this affective darkness that descends in tandem with the actual darkness haha. Either way it is time wasted, that currently I only have until 4pm or so to utterly delight and to proceed closer to actual freedom 
So the aim is to remain exactly where I am now and delight in the magical darkness all the same, why should it be any different? (currently 16:02 and I am still delighting 
).