Hi Claudiu,
First of all, we all were wasting our time to become free. Even Richard said, once he became free, that he could have done that years ago but procrastinated because he anticipated a difficult period afterwards.
It’s just when it happens, or is about to happen, it seems so easy, so smooth, and nothing really happens except that a phantom ‘self’ disintegrates like a soap bubble, and one wonders what all the fuss was about.
Well, it’s the passions which ‘make all the fuss’, especially the very tenacious passionate instincts for ‘self’-survival. And you nevertheless can pat yourself on the back that you figured it out this far, because the human condition is indeed very “tricky, very wily” and very, very cunning and weird to boot.
Also, everyone needs to figure it out for themselves. Here is what I quoted recently –
Richard: And had I been some other person in some other context the salutary realisation would have been different too … meaning that only the particular person can know what they must do – and they will not know what that is until it happens – and when they do know what to do it will be too late to stop the happening.
Hence all the procrastination – it means the end of ‘me’ – because it can, and will, happen just here right now. [emphasis added]. (Richard, AF List, No. 94a, 30 Dec 2005)
I never found a description of Richard’s 4 hr PCE, which set it all in motion but here is one outstanding description where during a PCE he experienced being the senses only –
[Richard]: ‘I remember the first time I experienced being the senses only during a peak experience. There was no identity as ‘I’ thinking or ‘me’ feeling … simply this body ambling across a grassy field in the early-morning light. A million dew-drenched spider-webs danced a sparkling delight over the verdant vista and a question that had been running for some weeks became experientially answered: without the senses I would not know that I exist. And further to this: I was the senses and the senses were me. With this comes an awareness of being conscious … apperception’. (Richard, AF List, Alan, pce)
It’s strange, I only wrote the sequence of the actualism method the way I did in order to give you confirmation that you are definitely on the spot by choosing sensuousness to concentrate on, whereas for you it “puts a dent in me thinking I am somehow ‘good’ at this.” 
A well, never mind. 
Cheers Vineeto