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@scout

interesting, i’ve had experiences on psychedelics where psychological time ceased to exist as i’d previously known it, as well as the anxiety around it - but there was still change and a direction to change. there was no longer anticipation or anxiety surrounding where that change was leading, just presence

is that the “eternity” @Vineeto and richard discuss? time is not a concern or even really felt because the mind stops creating a past or future. but there is still always the change and there is only so much change i will experience before all experience ends

but maybe that doesn’t matter when i’m not worried about what’s not happening now. the sense of the “clock ticking” is mostly just fear yeah?

Hi @Scout,
You cannot think your way into this, it is indeed experiential.

Have you ever experienced that when you are feeling good, time seems to fly while when you are sad or worried time seems to go on forever?

This is a perfect example of ‘personal’ time, it’s all coloured by ‘me’, how ‘I’ feel, what ‘I’ want (or don’t want).

Contemplate just this sentence: “To ‘be’ is to take this moment of being alive personally … as being proof of ‘my’ subjective existence” and then, in attentive contemplation become fascinated by the very fact that ‘you’ and 8 billion other people all have their own personal experience of time. It can’t be that time is like this, can it?

There is an alternative how to think about this – apperceptiveness. You can try it out in a quiet moment.

Richard: Being ‘alive’ is to be paying attention – exclusive attention – to this moment in time and this place in space. This attention becomes fascination … and fascination leads to reflective contemplation. Then – and only then – apperception can occur. (Library, Topics, Apperception)

Cheers Vineeto