Hi Kuba,
Your whole message is music to my ears, ad expressed you eloquently too!
I was wondering what the female equivalent is to “balls of steel”?
Kuba: There is certainly a building courage, to own and to ‘be’ those feelings, those utterly rotten feelings which are ‘me’. But furthermore to see that there is no redemption for ‘me’, that ‘I’ am doomed, in the sense that ‘I’ will never be fixed, and to proceed exactly in that direction.
I think the most trenchant insight in the whole message is “‘I’ will never be fixed” – you are certainly hurtling towards your destiny knowing this.
Kuba: Proceeding in this way is like surfing on the very edge of where dread and despair continually turn into thrill as ‘I’ proceed to what ‘I’ am afraid of the most / what ‘I’ desire the most.
Just brilliant.
Cheers Vineeto