Haha well this really highlights what I have been doing, devising further problems to solve. And it is a successful pattern in a sense, this is that practicality of working through the human constitution which I always enjoyed about the method from the start. As Peter wrote somewhere it always seemed eminently sensible to just roll my sleeves up and begin chipping away. And I did successfully chip away at so many things. But this successful pattern is like a distraction now, I can always find the next thing to chip away at whilst remaining a feeling being.
Whilst all that chipping away can be done in the meantime, this has absolutely nothing to do with it. This is clear now from the recent discussions. I would like a situation where I can chip away until the last issue resolves and then boom - actual freedom, but it is not at all like that.
As you and Richard mentioned to Geoffrey in the Australia Q&As - there is no link at all between the application of the method, between chipping away at the social identity and self immolation. It is a separate event altogether and cannot be ‘trained for’ in that sense.
It’s like I thought that all this “in the meantime” business would be training me for the last event, to make it easier. But it seems the option to self immolate has been here all along, it could have been taken at any point, it did not require any training and it will not be made easier by any training.
I remember reading (in disbelief) the story of the lady who flew in to visit Richard and was actually free shortly after, this makes sense now.
So it’s funny really because all these various tools I have been sharpening over the years whilst applying the method, they have no use for self immolation, and I have always been particularly bad at proceeding without knowing what is ahead, not a pioneer at heart at all 
It’s a little like these BJJ shorts I have which have printed on them - “you can’t teach heart”, this is how I feel.
Although I can pinpoint a couple of events which required that I allow something to happen which I cannot plan in advance. The first one was having the first PCE after starting the method, it seemed like I was chasing the impossible, but after 6 months or so it happened, I couldn’t believe it but it happened!
The second was stepping out from control, this had that same flavour of proceeding somewhere where I haven’t visited before and therefore I couldn’t work it out in advance, and yet all this energy was needed to proceed.
So I am clearly capable of it, it is more that all the various tools and techniques I was taught throughout my life cannot prepare me for this event. @jamesjjoo has/had his habit of reducing things to a single sentence and I have my habit of wanting to have the territory meticulously charted out before any motion forward.
Whereas what is needed is to be a pioneer, even though it has been done before I am a pioneer by virtue of proceeding into the unknown.
There is 1 aspect I find very freeing in the prospect of being a pioneer though, which is that there is no need to get bogged down in the ‘how to’, no need for processes and rules and regulations. No need to wait at all.