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While this is eminently a sensible course of action for most actions in life and to a certain degree for becoming actually free, the last step cannot follow the same pattern.

Yes this makes sense, I did consider this when I was writing that post because I remembered that prior to going out from control I also had no way to know exactly what it was I was aiming for or how exactly it would look like when it’s happening, and yet there was still a movement forward, it had to be discovered and so it was all about experientially proceeding forward.
Now looking back it makes sense but that is because the shift has happened already so I now have experiential knowledge which I can reason with.

Now I realise that going out from control (which is a different way of ‘being’) is small potatoes compared with ‘my’ total extinction. But it was a qualitative shift of sorts so I can see that I cannot know what something is like before it is experienced, and of course this applies to ‘my’ self-immolation, as Richard wrote in his journal :

Just like one cannot know the taste of something until one eats it … so too is it with death as the end of ‘being’

I remember specifically from my PCEs that I find myself in a completely different world, and this is not hyperbole, it is a whole new world. So with the ending of ‘being’ this body finds itself firmly and irrevocably in that whole new world, with ‘me’ and ‘reality’ having never actually existed in the first place.
So yes I can see that there is no way ‘I’ could possibly reason this out in advance, actually it’s kind of funny to consider that ‘I’ might even try.

So this is good news actually! Because there is no recipe, and as there is no recipe there are no steps to follow, as there are no steps to follow then now is both the way and the means.

@Vineeto

To succeed, you will have to dare to care, to care so deeply that you dare to do something, to allow something to happen, that has never happened to you before. This aspect of it is an immense daring and hence it needs a deep and abiding caring – and then, in the blink of an eye, you are here, here where you belong.

This is just wonderful advice, received clearly and with much appreciation It reminds me of Srinath’s report of becoming free :

The enormity of this dawned on me suddenly like it never had before. The enormity of what I had to give up. It took my breath away

This is the kind of daring and the kind of care we are talking about. I can see it will take a once in a lifetime dedication to have it happen, something ‘I’ have never done before and will never do again. Indeed what a time to be alive!