This theme of sweetness got me to thinking of what exactly brings about that profound feeling. The context of love that you experience it in, specifically when you are in the intimate company of your partner, reminded me of those occasions in my life where I felt that same supreme sweetness. I recall experiencing it many years ago when intimately interacting with the girl I loved – adored, really – and who loved me. It was sweet intoxication. I love her dearly to this day although our lives long ago went in different directions.
Looking at it again, the sweetness resulted from the union we manifested. So the sweetness that pervades when making out, embracing, gazing into each other’s eyes, etc, is the result of no longer experiencing yourself as being a separate person. It comes from losing yourself, dissolving your individuality, in her:
Ordinarily we instinctually and reflexively draw a boundary between ourself and not-ourself. As you melt into her arms you are no longer individuated, no longer self. And how sweet it is.
As you’ve realized it’s challenging to stay dissolved in that sweet bath of intimacy with another human. Life pulls you apart from each other. Separated again. You are once more a distinct entity. Is there a more dependable and direct way of bringing about the sweetness of dissolution than either love or fentanyl?
I feel a sweetness as the universe gently draws closer to me, like to a lover’s kiss. Can all that you are melt into the universe? Afterall, the universe is already thinking all your thoughts. It sees everything that you see. It is very, very close.
Thank you for sharing your life experiences with us here.