Josef: Thanks Vineeto, I’m going through many different feelings and thoughts at the moment while digesting this experience. Going to wait till the dust settles before I write more. (link)
Hi Josef,
Such ups and downs are natural after a potentially life-changing experience, especially as you already identified the next step – to put everything on a preference basis. For encouragement here is a short experiential report from AdamH how he succeeded in getting back to feeling good –
AdamH: Just took a little down then back up journey, reflecting now on just how masterful “I” am in terms of coming with convincing reasons to feel bad. Basically started down on this whole narrative about how I wasn’t living the life I should be and was covering up problems through actualism (and thus shouldn’t get back to feeling good).
After getting back to feeling good I just don’t agree with what I was believing at the time. The things I was worried about seem like microscopic unfairnesses in a sea of abundance. Feeling bad about them seems like cutting off my nose to spite my face. Plus it’s obvious that by feeling bad about those unfairnesses I just made, piled on more problems for myself and others by spreading unpleasant vibes. (link)
And one from Ian in December last year, how wonderful it is being increasingly happy and harmless and naïvely appreciating being alive –
Ian: And it really is so much fun. It feels like have crossed a threshold where now I am engaged in the play of increasing my enjoyment and appreciation, becoming happy and harmless, above/instead of my normal goals, because it is so much fun – fun now, to see the way I tick, to identify/ describe the different facets/ faces of being this identity, and gently let them slide in favour of more harmlessness.
There’s so much to it, so much wonderfulness – it seems every part of the experience of being alive is fascinating.
I’m having what seems to be somewhat cyclical (as my energy and attention waxes and wanes) waves of experiences of naiveté that I haven’t had before, where there is no enemy, where life is playful and joyful, where shimmers of amazement and wonder come to the fore, where there is literal pleasure trickling through my body in just being alive – sensuosity is also of the internal body, where feeling good really feels so good, where appreciation of my fellow human being (great phrase) and the acknowledgement of effort made and energy imparted by us as individuals and collectively comes easily.
Enjoying seeing where this is going. (link)
All the best
Cheers Vineeto