James: The wheels have come off. ‘I’ am depressed.
Vineeto: Alternatively you can look for the trigger which caused you to be depressed. It may just be a habitual reaction which you could easily decline to obey any longer. […] 2 takeaways which got you back to feeling excellent a month ago –James: 2) I am the experience of what is happening. (link)
James: The trigger was the painful condition of my back and not seeing anyway for it to get better and that it can only get worse.
The fact is the pain is tolerable with the pain meds and my new back doctor might can help me. The name of his practice is Texas Intervention Pain Care so maybe he can intervene although I can’t see it. I need to be patient and give him a chance. Patience is the key.
My motivation is my memory of the actual world.
I can get back to feeling good by getting a good night of sleep and start eating better and doing what exercise I can to strengthen the core of my back like he told me to do.
Hi James,
According to the sequence of what you wrote, the tigger is not the pain itself but your emotional reaction to it.
This is called resentment. You had the pain for a long time and it waxes and wanes, that is the nature of your particular condition. Of course, you do whatever is practical and possible regarding the physical condition. However, it is your resentment about having the pain in the first place, which acerbates it and feeds ‘me’, it feeds your feeling bad and angry about the pain.
Or you can change being resentful and angry because you acknowledge that are your feelings. I had feedback from several other people who have given up their resentment with instant success including diminishment of pain for some, after understanding this simple mechanism that one can change one’s affective outlook on life when recognizing that ‘I’ am my feelings.
Richard lived with his severe back pain for about a decade, after the pain medication stopped working. I never ever heard him complain about it nor did he stop enjoying and appreciating being alive.
You do not have to be depressed, unless you choose to be.
Cheers Vineeto