My focus lately has been on sincerity, naivete, and investigating/approaching the feeling of worry without getting to caught up in what the worry/stress is about.
Something I’ve been considering is that if I am sincerely well-intentioned, most of the worry is gone because it relates to me calculating around interactions in the corporate environment.
Is this what sincerity and naivete is about? In some ways it seems to fit with what I’ve read, but I don’t know if I can 100% distinguish it from pacifism, except that the intention behind it is genuinely not about being holier than thou and grabbing onto a principle, more just about choosing to live in an easier and simpler way for the inherent value of that.
The fear that prevents me from committing to it more is that I will be left defenseless, which is nothing new. I think what’s strange to me is that I’m waiting for some ‘final’ insight that shows me very clearly how this naivete does not actually leave me defenseless before I commit. Perhaps that insight is something that is only gained from practical experience with being that way and is not something I can really prove to myself ahead of time? Is it just a confidence that builds with experience as opposed to an understanding that I finally ‘work out’?