Ahh, ya bastich - nothing practically useful about the how of self immolation.
I know there was a lot of info on the old slack site.
But I’ve got pretty much zero on self immolation to go on from reading reports (really really wanted to do it and belived I could do it and then IT happened!).
6 people have gotten to basic freedom, two of whom transitioned to Actual Freedom.
Just need a little more on practical how to’s on the journey.
I’ve been devouring actualism, but definitely have a long way to go.
I’m also mixing methods but have signed on for another couple of retreats till the end of Feb, and will be doing some direct path work till then. After that, it’s probably going to be solamente actual freedom.
Perhaps you overlooked or underestimated the importance of the step probably most often referred to by those who have managed to self-immolate (including @Srinath in his site, as a pre-condition): having had enough PCEs (and having somewhat tired of returning from them to “normality” -however extraordinary, as in those who returned to still-in-control/same-way-of-being virtual freedom, or even to out-from-control/different way of being virtual freedom-).
And about how to make PCEs happen, there is indeed much that has been written.
However, as I have had many PCEs and some of them of long duration, Vineeto made it clear to me (I would see many years later she was right…) that it is a necessary condition, but not a sufficient one.
In terms of practical guide on how to self-immolate… in an email to me, Vineeto said this about Geoffrey & Srinath’s report: “Those two reports that are online are the perfect motivation and how-to-do-it guide for becoming actually free […]”
That’s to say that, if fully actually free Vineeto considers those two reports to be “how-to-do-it guides”… maybe they really are, and you are missing something
I think once you have a full-blown and clear PCE it will become more clear. There’s definitely a how and a way to do it, but it’s really about “letting it happen”, which is so simple yet so incredibly ‘non-specific’ (haha), that it is easy to even miss that it’s an instruction in the first place. And of course before you can let “it” happen you have to experientially understand what “it” is…
What I would suggest if I were you, as you say you can already feel fantastic on-command, is to commit to feeling fantastic (or at least ‘good’) come-what-may, if only for say a day or two, and while feeling particularly excellent, read these descriptions of PCEswith your whole ‘being’, with the particular intention of inducing a PCE for yourself! Once you have that clear PCE goalpost then the way will become clear.
With that being said, I wrote a long post about this how actualism writings seem to not have anything practical in it on the DharmaOverground. Note that it’s specifically about the actualism method and not how to self-immolate per se. That being said, it may well be worth a read, though it’s not specifically tailored to your situation: [link].