written by an actualist:
3:08 AM
One can observe oneself in a mirror briefly, or in more detail. Try the later for 5mins and ask yourself ; Are you what is reflected? Or is there a feeling about what you see? Do you feel anything about what you say you are?The feeling is ‘being’. Its not hidden, but is usually in a state of conflict with what is seen, heard, touched, smelled and is always moving away from being here and now. Usually striving, sometimes dispondent, but always wanting to be anything but a flesh and blood body. You can feel yourself squirm at that feature you don’t like in the mirror, as if one can escape, but with the ghastly realisation one can’t escape. So one distracts oneself, says a half hearted “oh well”, and pretends to be ok. This is being a self in a body, that fundamentally will not give you the ultimate survival that is ones basic nature.
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, thanks for bringing this topic up, it has been veey useful for me to do this exercise again. I have a feeling of being insubstantial again! I mean that I can’t take myself seriously atm, there is only ever a feeling, nothing substantial.
