Oh my stars, what the heck is going on. The moment I’d pressed Reply, put on my shoes and gone outside all the pain vanished and the actual came rushing back into my view. I don’t know if being at home is still hard for me to handle (I’ve put “identity anchors” up everywhere, it feels like I’m a spider and I’ve weaved the psychic web extra hard at home and at work), or if it’s something with exposing myself and being sincere on the forum that adds extra sauce.
Anyway, I’ll use this post for a couple extra things: I’ve become a fangirl for actualism. I’ve noticed myself checking in daily here, wanting to write about it and always being excited, hoping for more posts from others describing their experiences with the actual too. It’s really funny when I think about it, I’ve never been much of a fangirl but right now I’m behaving like a teen with a serious case of the k-pop or something. 
And finally the only video I’ve (so far) had a peak experience watching. It was so adventurous and childlike, especially the sunset as he’s about to tuck himself in:
