Elgin's Journal

[Miguel]

@Elgin

What is missing is the utter urgency and the seeing of the fact that I must die. The “problem” it seems is that I’m quite comfortable with my situation. Even if things happen I just know that I will be back to good soon. I’m quite good at feeling good for long periods of time. It seems I can’t create this sense of emergency on my own.

Maybe you will find useful the reflections and suggestion made by @Srinath to a similar comment I made, although it is good to keep in mind the full context (which you can find in Virtual Freedom vs. Rapid Method - #5 by Miguel) and that for your case his suggestions could be different:

@Srinath

well this is an incredible achievement in itself. I was first drawn to actualism because with it, I was able to feel pretty good, in difficult circumstances. I would say to forget about altruism and focus on gradually getting up your baseline to great and excellent levels - even if for short periods of time. What might help is to slooooooow right down and get very detailed e.g. say allocate an hour where moment to moment you appraise your mood and get back to feeling good, once you find the reason why you felt bad. Then you can slowly lengthen the amount of time spent doing that. Even if you are quite experienced, I think its always good to regress and go back to basics from time to time.