I was watching all the cutscenes in all the ‘Halo’ games and noticed that at certain inflection points there is a sense of urgency, importance, which I connected is sourced in the psyche, I see it in myself when I’m chasing women or money especially.
We create crises because we feel that whatever we’re doing is important, and attempt - often successfully - to transmit that feeling to others, thus creating a communal crisis.
This is experienced as a time-rush demanding hurried action, which inevitably exhausts the body… so many of ‘our’ ill-fated schemes cannot be accomplished. They will remain forever unfinished, resulting in an overarching sense of disappointment, depression, exhaustion. We know we cannot accomplish ‘our’ aims, and yet remain unwilling to release the sense of importance that they hold over us.
The cycle is hope → rush → failure → exhaustion/depression → hope →
Always taken for granted is that what our feeling is telling us, is accurate
That the feelings of hope are accurate, that whatever activity will ‘get us the goods.’
That the negative feelings are accurate, that there is indeed ‘something bad happening.’
And we’re persistently willing to yoke our bodies to whatever most recent hare-brained scheme is invented (usually a re-hash of something already proven ineffectual), because we are miserable and must exist in hope that something better is ‘out there.’
This activity is inherently hard on our bodies and engenders exhaustion, which itself tends to impress additional depression upon the psyche.
Luckily there is a way out in bringing intelligence to the fore, actually examining and determining whether this or that emotional belief is accurate. Doing this or that because it is sensible rather than with the belief that it will bring relief.
And with the increasing ease of enjoyment & appreciation as a baseline, less and less is there a need to ‘escape’ to some hope, with the traumatic cycles of rushes & exhaustions that follow.
And with that increasing ease, a marvelous side-effect is ever-increasing clarity of mind, allowing for ever-increasing lucidity to determine the validity or falsity of beliefs. At some point one has reached an unavoidable escape velocity.
All I can do is continue.