Claudiu's Journal

huh, reading the quotes you posted @Vineeto something did click there, it is something that I have seen before, the quotes I am referring to :

By ‘being with it’ as it was happening – without moving in any direction whatsoever with escapist thoughts, feelings or urges – ‘I’ would come to experience ‘being it’ … and ‘I’ am this fear and this fear is ‘me’. Thus ‘I’ came to experience ‘myself’ in all ‘my’ nakedness . All ‘I’ am, is this fear… In other words: ‘I’ am fear and fear is ‘me’ (and ‘I’ am aggression and aggression is ‘me’; ‘I’ am nurture and nurture is ‘me’; ‘I’ am desire and desire is ‘me’).
The direct experiencing of this is the ending of ‘me’ … and I am this flesh and blood body only being here now as only this moment is

When it is understood that the one is the epitome of the many and that ‘I’ am the ‘many’ and the ‘many’ is ‘me’ … ‘I’ self-immolate at the core of ‘being’.

The seeing was almost like this entire game of being an identity is a misunderstanding. ‘I’ am ‘my’ feelings and ‘my’ feelings are ‘me’… Furthermore ‘I’ am the ‘many’ and the ‘many’ are ‘me’… There are only the passions and the drama which erupts due to these passions operating in human beings is called “the human condition”. Yet there are no ‘entities’ actually in existence, it is only that the passions have usurped human intelligence and created an illusory real world along with the various ‘who’s’ that live there.

It was the glimpse that ‘my’ very ‘being’ has no substance at all - that if ‘I’ am seen to be merely a feeling then ‘I’ cease to exist in the entirety of ‘my’ being. This seeing was that it would be almost too easy for ‘me’ to cease existing because ‘I’ don’t actually exist in the first place.

It would be all this over absolutely nothing… that this whole time you have been conversing with a flesh and blood human being and ‘my’ whole existence was as if a huge misunderstanding.

That would be something to laugh about à la Geoffrey :yum:

And this is that “special preciousness” of ‘being’, in that the passions have become a ‘who’, this ‘who’ feels precious beyond compare and yet ‘he’ has no actual existence, ‘he’ is merely a feeling.

And what is even more ridiculous is that the ‘many’ exist in the same manner. What ‘humanity’ has been doing is over nothing because there is not a single ‘entity’ that actually existed through all this madness. Both the ‘me’ and the ‘many’ are the instinctual passions in operation.

So 100% it is doable for all, the illusion can come to an end. Furthermore once done there is no possibility at all for going back, there would be nothing to go back to, there never was in actuality.

Of course this thing that I saw was only a glimpse as ‘I’ am still here but it seems extremely doable, exactly what Richard wrote - “The direct experiencing of this is the ending of ‘me’ … and I am this flesh and blood body only being here now as only this moment is”.

‘I’ just have to allow ‘myself’ to be exposed like so, for the very core of ‘my’ being to be unravelled in this way.

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