Hi.
I didn’t have anything more to say about the discussion above. I otherwise was “over” trying to work out how any of this “actualism” was going to work out for me.
It clearly wasn’t. 14 years, and not so much as a sustained period of feeling good. Whatever was in my way, was clearly unmovable through whatever ways I was approaching it.
Strangely, over the last few days, another pursuit, has brought ‘me’ into sharp focus. More so that ever before.
I have been learning to become a Trader, specifically forex and gold/oil. I started over a year ago, and was able to do it full time, (sort of) for the last 7 weeks.
I thought that I would master it. I am pretty good at picking up skills, and this seemed like something that “if I just had the time” I would get the hang of.
Oh! How wrong I was. The entire skill “is” emotional. Yes, there is hundreds of hours of learning, which is very easy to do with AI. Yes, the principles are not “rocket science “. But, boy oh boy, if it is not “the” Masterclass in feelings being a detriment to living.
The simultaneous effect has been my desire to start jogging, and becoming healthier. I feel compelled to increase my cognitive health! I can’t hide! I am exposed!
Without meaning to, when I am just doing anything, the world around is brighter and more vibrant.
It’s very obvious that the very immediate fact that ‘I’ am in the way of being able to trade effectively, and I have no one else to blame except my feeling reality, is so unintentionally the best learning experience regarding actualism I have had.
Who would have thought it?
Haha