Thanks Vineeto.
There has been an interesting and very strong emotional charge that I have had my whole life around creativity. My mother reported it to me being very obvious even at two years old!
If I can’t immediately master something I give up! The side effect is I try extremely hard to get it right. Which, given a natural talent for music and art, and by extension anything that involves 3 dimensional mental understandings, I excel at these endeavours, without putting in “hard yards”.
I started feeling it again a lot lately while trying to get back into creating musical recordings. I bought equipment which I thought would do the job, but it is far more complex and unintuitive that that old “two year old” reaction was there!
Given your recent reminders about “fight or flight, eat or be eaten” , I.e. the blind natural basis of a feeling being, I am now wondering what this particular emotional rejection around putting effort “over time” into creativity.
Still pondering this. It’s a strong reaction.