@Josef is correct in that my unilateral declaration, was my answer to my own realisation…
I reacted strongly to Vineeto’s post, and decided that I would need to keep my hands in my pockets for a few days to work out how to proceed.
For the record, my unilateral declaration had little effect on my mood. I was in a good mood day on Friday, and had the day off work.
This morning, whilst obviously running mentally over this issue, I started to realise that I could start by looking at any beliefs, rules, conditioning etc specifically around why ‘I’ have not had a PCE, why pure intent (as in the actual thing, palpable life force etc) wasn’t being experienced.
This was the spirit in which I wrote my overly “wordy “ declaration. As I said, it really didn’t do much, except cause a sequence of events which had me reacting to the whole premise of Actualism. As in, if one can’t start without pure intent, and one’s own intent is “dangerous “ then one can’t start at all.
My mind was made up this morning, to basically go ahead anyway, warning or not, as I wasn’t talking about licentiousness or “doing whatever I want “, but specifically that all social rule etc, which dictate that I should feel bad now, or should feel “good feelings “ now, no longer are ones I will blindly follow. Following that decision, I realised that I could be very specific and look at the beliefs around “pure intent” as described on the AFT. There does seem to be a background of conditioning (perhaps) that specifically prevents me experiencing that.
It was surprised that I had decided that, minutes before I opened the Forum and saw the discussion here.