Andrew: Thanks Vineeto.
Hi Andrew,
It’s a pleasure.
Vineeto: … inexhaustibly voracious to be substantiated and confirmed over and over again by recognition from feeling beings including yourself. [Emphasis added].
Andrew: This was also a reason that I “blew up” the other day; a pride in doing well, and being proven to not be doing so well, when something relatively minor happened.
I don’t like the reactive way I am going about this at the moment. I see my normal thinking habits are changing, but there is a fear now of “what’s next? What tiny annoyance is going to launch me now?”
The fear is losing. Losing what little success I have, in a moment.
There is a very simple solution. Make a pact with yourself not to beat yourself up when emotions come to the surface (optimally before expressing them) that are presently not on your list of wanted/ appreciated emotions. Rather pat yourself on the back for every new discovery and tackling the obstacle.
Also remember, to put everything in your life on a preference basis then you can be winner big time, I mean in the grand scheme of life and in every moment of your life. It can look like this –
Richard: I do have personal preferences … one of which is a marked disinclination to engage in any sport or sporting activity (including all aspects of spectatorism).
There is, for instance, a preference for omnivorism over vegetarianism; a preference for water-based activities (boating, swimming, and so on) over land-based activities (hiking, mountaineering, and so forth); a preference for comedic entertainment over the dramatic/ a documentary over a fantasy/ the voluptuous over the horrific … and, to detail a few general ones at random, a preference for creature comforts over frugal asceticism, a preference for the warmer climes over the colder, and a preference for civilisation over savagery.
Please bear in mind, however, that a preference for something is to merely prefer this over that … and if ‘this’ is not available/ does not happen then ‘that’ does not detract one iota from the utter enjoyment and sheer appreciation of being just here, at this place in infinite space, right now, at this moment in eternal time, as this particular form which perdurable matter (mass/ energy) has taken shape as. (Richard, AF List, No. 118, 23 June 2006)
Every surfacing emotion is part of the adventure to find out how you tick, to explore and discover, and the human condition naturally involves the full range of feeling, not just the socially accepted ones or the ones that you favour. Every one is a challenge, an opportunity and, when welcomed, a step to move forward.
Andrew: I am going to ponder this point and see what happens. I don’t see an option to anticipate another trigger, a pre-emptive strike, as the future doesn’t give clues because it doesn’t exist, yet.
It really seems that it’s a matter of bravery. Walking happily into the unknown, not knowing what the next “stubbed toe in the dark” is going to be.
If you welcome every emotion as being what you are and be friendly with yourself, then every event is a possibility for success.
Andrew: My thoughts have been coming back to what the ultimate aim is. As in, actual freedom. Thinking out loud, there are going to have to be mistakes. Experiments. Or I will be meandering around in feeling good, rather than mooching around feeling neutral, but no closer to activating greater naïveté.
Wouldn’t “be meandering around in feeling good” much better than your previous modus operandi?
Change your value-system – there are no mistakes, only opportunities to learn – and feeling foolish can be the door to naiveté (where you like yourself and others).
Andrew: Without PCE experience and the understanding that comes from that, a lot of what we talk about, or I read about, I have to take as a premise, rather than a personally verified fact.
With sincerity you have the key to naiveté and naiveté allows you to invite a PCE.
RICHARD: It takes the felicity and innocuity of naiveté to bring about a PCE: where one is happy and harmless a benevolence and benignity which is not of ‘my’ doing operates of its own accord … and it is this beneficence and magnanimity which occasions the PCE.
The largesse of the universe (as in the largesse of life itself), in other words. (Richard, AF List, Rick-a, 4 March 2006).
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Cheers Vineeto