Last night and today I was back to feeling good. Had a lovely time with my mother for her birthday, and interacted with new freshness with my colleagues.
There is a background feeling of rawness as I sort through all that was triggered at once.
It was the ‘mother load’, if you will; converging and well repressed resentment, rebellion, pride, sexism, financial irresponsibility, practical injustice, false loyalty, peasant mentality, entitlement. An exposé of petty demands, and a display that my “precious “ is SO much more “precious “ than anyone else’s.
I took my mother out to where my father used to, KFC by the river and watch the sunset. She was very happy to be there. I have noticed that she will light up when I am playful and spontaneous like my father was.
My co-workers were thoroughly listened to, with full attention and a well-timed joke. Again, a playful Andrew seems to be quite popular.